When all your strength has disappeared

This last month or so has been crazy. We’ve had the summer holidays which I am sure most of you will agree with me saying, that although I love seeing my kids and being with my kids for the 6 weeks, they need routine and school. Just everything goes a little off the wall regarding…

Mummy Keeping Up With the Joneses

As a Mum I can’t believe how competitive Mums are. It seems you can’t go anywhere without someone saying their kids are better or their parenting skills are perfect. You go to a baby class and the mums are talking about the organic home made dinners that they make and purée down for their babies…

Anxiety is so high

This last couple of weeks I have felt the lest motivated ever!  I honestly think it’s all down to anxiety about Thursdays hospital appointment at Great Ormond Street.  Last time we went to see this particular consultant (we have a couple up there), we were given a list of numbers for therapists and councillors and…

Can we really have it all?

I’ve been thinking about whether we can really have it all.   Can we really; be a parent have a career have a good relationship with the partner have a social life have hobbies     Are there enough hours in the day/week/month/year?   Do we have enough energy to at the end of the…

I hate this unknown 

I feel awful writing this… I hate my daughters condition. It has robbed me of her first year, her first year is meant to be exciting and yet for a year I have been worried senseless.  I feel robbed of her future!  Will she just need a tablet? Probably not!  Will she grow old and…

One tough week

I’ve been quite quiet recently. I promised to be honest on here and so here it is. Dad and I have been struggling this week. We know we love each other and we know we need each other but the stress of everything has really started to make an impact on us.  Dad has got…

Guilt at having respite 

I sat down one night and cried and realised I needed my best friend, who happens to now live in New Zealand. Dad turned round and told me to book some tickets, he would hold the house together while I go and visit family in Perth and my friend in New Zealand. I will be…